Humble Pie

I don't like arrogance in people. At all. It is attractive on no one. Be Humble.

Psalms 149:4
For the LORD takes delight in his people; he crowns the humble with salvation. 

I'm watching the grammys. And the Black Eyed Peas are on. And while I like their music (and perhaps the fact that one of them finally stood up to Perez!) They are very arrogant. And it just makes me like them a lot lot less.

Along the same lines of being humble, sometimes when there are things in your life that you can't control, you just need to take a step back and give it back to God. He knows what He is doing. He has a plan. I know sometimes we want to take control of our lives. But, its not our lives to control. And we need to remember that.

The changes I was speaking of, have fallen through. I'm a little bummed, but I know He has a plan for me.And I think he has other things in the works for me and my life. I'm taking my ASVAB on Tuesday afternoon. Right? Raise your hand if your shocked! *raises hand* Never thought that would happen. I always thought about it, but to actually be doing it?? Shocking to say the least. I'm nervous at the thought. Because really, huge changes could be in store. Am I ready? Like really ready? Only time will tell. And I know that God has a plan for me.

They did tell me, I need to lose weight. Okay they didn't tell me. But they said as far as the weight chart goes, I'm like 7 pounds over. Harsh no? Its kind of embarrassing to have 3 guys in an office discussing your weight :( Its good motivation. This weekend I've ran almost 6 miles. Which isn't a lot. But, when you take someone who really wasn't exercising, it is a lot.

I'll let you know how everything works out.

Uncharted Territory

On the positivity front. I've been in a good mood all day. I actually got a text message from a lovely co-worker (as I do every morning lol) that said something like "I don't wanna get up." To be honest, I didn't either. I don't like 5 am. And I haven't for the last 2 years. For whatever reason all I said was "I'm trying to sleep." Meaning that I want to sleep. I just know I can't haha.
I have an amazing helper to get through this. Ashley is doing this with me. Its something we both need. But as Sarah Buxton put it
"still need stars when youre wishin at night
A best friend to set you right, a good laugh, a warm bath
And a beautiful song you can sing along to
Good news thatll make you cry
All the little things that money cant buy"

Its an amazing pick me up to just listen to that song.

In other news, I borrowed Dear John from my Aunt today. I also finished Dear John today. It was good. I couldn't put it down. I was totally intrigued to see how it turned out. And then, I threw the book. I won't give it away, because it is about to come out in theaters (Feb 5th). But, lets just say I haaaattttteeeeedddd one specific part of the book. And even though it would ruin it, I hope that part changes.

I've never finished an entire book in a day. Something else that is totally new to me this week :)

Power of Positive Thinking

They say that positivity can change things. I'm out to see the truth in that. I've set a goal for myself. I do not want to be negative all week. At first thought, you would think ohh thats easy. But then think about it, how often do you get mad at a driver on the road, or annoyed when a person walking in front of you is going slow. How often do you just get irritated when you don't have the right ingredient for dinner in your house? I definitely plan on reporting back and seeing how each day goes. We shall see....

Rain!

It must be time to build an ark and gather the animals two by two. Or wait, I think we're too late once the rain has started to come. It has been insane in California this week. At final count, according to our backyard rain gauge, there was a little above 6 inches of rain. In a week. In California. That's a lot. Most Californians don't know what to do in the rain. Its comical. At work, on Thursday, we had what can only be described as a small lake out front. Our entertainment for the day was watching patients arrive and try to figure out how to not step in the puddle (hint: it was next to impossible). I was waiting for someone to slide down the hood of their car. It didn't happen, at least not while I was there.
The rain started on Saturday and went through the week. I saw the last of the showers last night around 11 or 12. That's 6 days of rain. And I'm okay with that. I could actually stand for it to rain another week or so. Some of the winds were pretty intense too. Usually about 45-50 mph. One night, the news said someone reported a gust at 86 mph!! Thats a little crazy, especially for California. The wind actually got the best of us. And we ended up with a tree in our backyard:

But, we have amazing neighbors, and the moment the rain stopped they had a tree cutting company out. They weren't able to do it today, as you can imagine there are trees down all over the city. But they were on it so fast. It was really kind of nice.
I also caught the flu this week. It wasn't really a bad week to get sick thought. And, thankfully, it wasn't too bad. I slept for like two days though. Cabin fever got the best of me. So on Wednesday night, Melissa and I went down to the beach. It was crazy 20-25ft waves. We went into a parking lot right on the beach. In 10 minutes it was flooded. I couldn't see in front of me driving home. But, in my defense it wasn't raining at all when we left the house.

Ch- Ch- Ch- Changes!

Huge changes in store for my life. I don't want to share exactly what, because its not for sure yet. I don't even know how possible it is. I've taken baby steps towards the ultimate goal. I'm very excited to even have this be a possibility. Its kind of like, I didn't totally screw up my life. Any prayers, good thoughts, whatever it is that you do, would be wonderful. But of course, I only wish for prayers for God's will and not mine.

I visited S on Thursday night. I fell in love with Pomona. Its such a cute little town. We went to Claremont for dinner and drinks. Strongest. Margarita. Ever. I don't know how I made it through the first one, honestly. And yes, I said first one. There were two. I figured, might as well. The Patron only burns for so long. But aside from the drinking, its really nice to be able to just get away, even for literally 12 hours. Sometimes, I just need a break. I'm around my parents always, and I love them, it just becomes too much after a while. I drove up there Thursday night and got there about 830 and I left Friday at 9 am. It was so fun.

3 Years ago- Why I hate January 13th

3 years ago was a huge day in my life. I got married. For, what is apparently, the first time. I despise today. And I will. Forever. Okay, at least until I am happy and in a steady relationship. Or, at least, just for this year I'll hate it.

But, I'm different. I'm totally different. I'm a new person. I know who that person is this time. I'm a little country girl. I am. I know that sounds weird, from a girl from Cali. But, its the truth. Its when I'm happiest. I want to move to Texas. I want to live in a small town. I want to do me. And that's what I am doing. I am doing me.

I have more fun. I don't sit around anymore. That's all I did. It was boring. I'm a much better person because of this. And I will take it :)

Hi :-)

If you're reading this, then you know me. At least, at the time of this post you do. I hope to get more readers who don't know me. But, there's never any guarantees.