Catching up

Sorry for the long break in the blogiture. Its been a crazy few weeks with everything thats been going on. I'm gonna try to recap everything for you.

The Navy is paused. I don't really get what's going on there. A few weeks ago I was told that they wanted me to go to MEPS for my migraines. Long story short, they had it wrong and I was supposed to be there for my knee (supposedly). I still don't buy that. I still think it was for my migraines. They closed the issue on my knee the FIRST time I went. So, I'm pretty much convinced that my recruiter is going to screw this up. It wouldn't be the end of the world, I'm not gonna lie. My hearts not completely in it anymore. I mean, I'll go with it if it happens. But, it is what it is. So they sent everything to the naval med bureau or some shit like that. So, we'll see.

I got a new job! It starts tomorrow. I finally gave up on the other one. It was ridiculous. I was over it. I was over the hours, the pay and most of the people. I hate starting new things, though. Because I'm fairly self sufficient. I don't like training new things. I just wanna go in and know what I'm doing and get it done. I guess soon enough I'll know whats up and I won't have to worry.

Amanda was here this weekend! I can't believe that the weekend finally came! I feel like we were waiting forever. And now, I am sad that it is over. But, I have every confidence she will be back :)

Here's some pictures to tie you over till I can write again and write more about the weekend.

The group at Shouthouse

That would be my best friend

So hard to keep a straight face

two/eleven photography

So my best friend (one slice of the pie... or .7853...) is not only an amazing mother. But, she is also an amazing photographer. She wanted to try some new locations (and to be honest, I think she was just itching to shoot! lol) so she forcibly took me out today. She is amazing, I swear I'm not photogenic, and she made me look amazing.
2/11 is her son's birthday. And thus two/eleven photography was born as well. Check her out. If you need anyone, go to her! I promise, its a good plan.

I LOVE this one. She told me to do whatever, "be sexy or something." So this was me pretending I knew what sexy was. And it was just too funny. It makes being 24 look like fun though. And I feel like an adult.

She says she didn't edit my hair. So much more red was left in my hair! I had no idea! And my eyes <3

LOVE

No other description needed

And this one, well its my absolute favorite so far :)

Thank you again Ashley!! I absolutely had a blast with you today. I seriously think that some of these came out this good because you get me so well. You know how to make me laugh.

Lies...

"Oh what a tangled web we weave, when first we practice to deceive." -Sir Walter Scott

I don't understand why people insist on lying about who they are. I mean, I get that when we do that its because we wanted to impress the person we are lying to. But, here's the thing. When have you ever been able to keep up with that lie? Its impossible. Eventually our true colors show. Someone ends up mad, and it ends poorly. No matter what the situation. We lie to a friend, a boyfriend, a girlfriend, a parent, a relative. Whoever it is, whatever the lie, the truth ALWAYS prevails.
Isn't it just easier to tell the truth? So you have two belly buttons. Who cares? Okay, so thats not a normal lie. But, you get the point. No matter what it is, wouldn't it just be easier to tell the truth? Because then its out in the open. And if it's something small (like that belly button thing!) it can be worked through.
But, what happens when it is kept a secret? Let's lose the belly button thing because thats making me weirded out. Let's go with hair color. If I dye my hair blonde, and tell you its my natural hair color, what happens when the truth comes out, a month, 6 months, a year, whatever, down the line. My roots grow out a little too much, I don't have the money to do it. Well now, its been a LIE. Its not just about my hair color anymore. Now its a fight, instead of a talk or a passing comment. See that?
And really, who can keep that all straight? Who you told what, what friends you need to tell the lie to. Who you need to tell people to keep it straight with. And then they have to keep it all straight. Or, you could just tell the truth.
Why make something bigger than it is? Tell it like it is. Personally, I would respond better to the truth. If you hate me, tell me that. If you love me, tell me that. Don't keep it a secret and tell me some other thing. Because, the truth always always always comes out. Because acting, after a while, gets old.

Mystery of God

God works in the most mysterious ways sometimes. As you can tell, I've been very angry with Chris lately. It's just a lot to get over for me. I'm angry with how it all went down. I'm happy without him, don't get me wrong. But, the anger I have about it, it's incredible.

So, on Sunday at church one of the topics mentioned was divorce. It struck a bit of a chord. And I hated it. So, I put in a prayer request, to get over my anger and to forgive him. I expected a prayer and that was all. God. Works. In. Mysterious. Ways. I got a phone call today. From a man from my church. He said he got my prayer request and was following up and wanted to pray with me. We talked for a minute. I told him how everything was fine, until about the last month of the last deployment, and things got bad and fast. I told him how (I am sure) he cheated on me. And that Chris is a Marine. The man was a Marine for 17 years. And, while his story is not mine to tell, he wants me to sit down with his wife. He feels that she would be a good resource for me to talk with. I can't wait!

God is amazing. He said that Pastor Chico walked in and told him to call #2 on the list to check-up. I was that person. They had no idea, until I talked to him, that Chris was a Marine. They had no idea the circumstances of the divorce. They knew my age, my name and that I am (now) a regular attender of the church. I feel like this whole thing is a blessing. I've never felt more welcome at a church. This is definitely Home.

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